My biggest problem is motivation. I have lots of ideas to make my life an extraordinary event. But I lack the motivation to make them come true. I give up very easily, I put the reach point to low.

Although I think the world has to provide me with everything (I explained it in the last post), when it's up to me, then I don't expect anything. Is a duality of criteria that drives me crazy! I guess everybody has a little inner voice telling you, don't try… that's the only way you won't miss. And I also feel that what distinguishes us is the way we overcome that voice.

I'm afraid I'll never be someone that overcomes that felling easily… I guess I have to find the balance that will allow me to live in a more happy way, I'll have to take some of the energy I spend wishing for things, and put it in actually making something that could lead me forward those goals, instead of just waiting for them to turn into reality.

But I'm a realist and know that if the time for me to do that will ever come, it won't be today.