Schrödinger's cat

So I’m back to the same subject. Those things I have to do and don’t want to.
I’ve divided them into three sub-sets (being the main set, the group of things to do) [Talk about total geekness!!!]:

• The ones I really have to do;

• The ones I’m just ignoring for the time being;

• The ones I’m not going to do;

Populating the sets is fairly easy (explaining how I’ve done it... not so much):

• In the first one I’ve placed all the things I need to do that don’t mess my subconscious, e.g., ending the driving lessons, so I can have my driving licence.

• In the second I’ve placed all the things that would mess up my subconscious if I did something about them, i.e., using the allegory of the cave: I’m freed from the chains... but I’ve decided not to look up... I have an idea of what I might learn by looking... but I don’t know what I would do if I did get tricked into thinking the voices wore coming from shades, instead of thinking that the voices came from the same source of the shades, so I prefer not to look.

  I think I’m better off not knowing if the cat is dead or alive... for me, he is still both death and alive... and I’m starting to hope he stays that way... I know that this is very limited, because he could be alive... and I’m missing all the stuff I could do with a live cat (I have no idea what I could do with a cat)... but if the cat is alive and death at the same time... He’s not all death... and a half living cat beats the hell of a death one!

• And, logically, in the third set there isn’t anything.

So while writing this completely abstract text I’ve been possessed with two questions:

1. If I decide, for all the tasks in the second set, not to see if the cat is alive, isn’t the second set just the third set, with sugar icing on top of it?

2. Is there any real chance that all the cats are dead, i.e., if I chose to place all the things of the second set in the first one, would I have at least one living cat?

Grrrrrr...
I’m just probably to sleepy to make sense!

A music that's stuck inside my head... and just won't get out!

I've been awake for a while now
You've got me feelin' like a child now
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tinglees in a silly place

It starts in my toes
And I crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

The rain is fallin' on my window pane
But we are hidin' in a safer place
Under the covers stayin' safe and warm
You give me feelings that I adore

They start in my toes
Make me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

What am I gonna say
When you make me feel this way?
I just, mmm

It starts in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

I've been asleep for a while now
You tucked me in just like a child now
'Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth

It starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feelin' shows
'Cause you make me smile
Baby just take your time now
Holdin' me tight

Wherever, wherever, where ever you go
Wherever, wherever, where ever you go

Bubbly
Colbie Caillat

Certainties

I’m sure about so many things in my life at this moment, that I’m scared to think about them.

I know it sounds preposterous, but it’s true. I’m get scared even of thinking about what I have to do... because now I know what I have to do... in so many aspects of my life and I have to do it all at the same time. I also know I can’t keep delaying them (I normally just delay whatever I need to do until I just don’t need to do it because so many time has passed). This time, I need to act, to change something’s to which I’m used and simply can’t be anymore.

So I guess what I’m saying is that I’ll have to face change, even though I’m completely scared of change. I don’t like it. I truly dislike change, although I know it can change my life from a positive perspective.

Random though

So, as you can see in the sidebar (and despite some advices against!) I’m reading a book of Laura Esquivel. I don’t want to talk about the book, as I didn’t end it yet, but I want to share some ideas that came to me while reading it.

She addresses the subject of soul mates. But I wonder; do we really want to believe that soul mates exist?

Come on!!

I do believe in true love and all that stuff, I don’t believe that, as my psychology teacher once told me, you’ll eventually settle for something that’s not really love, just because you’ll get more grownup (it kind of makes me remember the book of Antoine de Saint Exupéry). So ok, it’s true I’m a romantic and I can’t get enough of stressing out that I believe in true love... but sole mates? Come on! It’s such a stretch. Believing that somewhere out there, there’s someone that’s 100% perfect for me (or you), and because of that stupid thought we end up snubbing people that are right there by our sides, supporting us, helping us and even loving us... but as they aren’t the perfect person that we are sure that exist's, because of that we’ll end up someday snubbing true love... just because it didn’t came from the (expected) soul mate!

Citation

Give us, for example, more independence, untie our hands to all of us, broaden the field of our activities, soften the surveillance and we... I assure you: the first thing we would do, would be to ask to be watched again.

Fiódor Dostoiévski , "Notes from the underground", 1864

All back now!

So I guess my stand-by time ended. During this month or so I finished my master (the presentation is still to be scheduled), and had a couple of weeks of vacation.
Besides that I thought a lot. I understood things that I should have understood a long time ago, and I learnt new things also.
I understood what I want of my professional future and what I have to do, so that desire becomes a reality.
So now all that’s left for me is to work hard to achieve these new goals!