Sometimes all it takes is a click, something to make you change your point of view, the same point of view that you’ve hold on to since forever.
That is what I believe has happened to me today. I had this pre-formulated thought in my mind for the last six months, and then, suddenly, out of nowhere, this thought just popped into my mind:
What if she thinks the same things of me that I do of her?
What if this is just a big misunderstanding between two people?
This raises two other questions in my mind, the first one is the obvious and direct one (If this new assumption is correct, what should be the next step?) the second one is more devious; Why do I still think the world turns around me, why do I have to think that every single action of everyone I know was taken/made/thought because I exist? It’s a serious problem of egocentrism and I really have absolutely no clue of how to end it… but I do however know how to minimize it (by simply ignoring my rushed, out of context and sometimes bias, deductions) and that is exactly what I intend to do.
So for now on I’ll try to ignore my assumptions of what I think made others take everyday, normal decisions… I’m just guessing that either it’s an impossible task or it will make my life easier.