Peace?

I’m starting to believe I wasn’t made to smile.

I can’t see a single reason I should. I feel lost everything in my world feels wrong... I can almost swear I forgot to breathe yesterday.
I just feel like there’s no goal worth pursuing, there is nothing that can happen in my life that can improve it... just lots of things waiting to happen that will make it worst, more painful, more troubling.

I ‘m able to feel my hearth beet when I’m anxious... and I’ve been able to ear it a lot in the past month...
I’m starting to hate each and every single beet it makes... If only it would stop... No more uncertainty, no more sadness, no more frustration, no more nothing... except maybe peace.

I miss you more than words can ever say!