Early 20's

So the other day I read something that got stuck in my head:
“…one tends to be a little dramatic in their early 20's”

I guess it’s true, after all if you read all the stuff I write it’s almost entirely about how good or bad I feel, what I think of others and other things in the same tone as everybody else.
Not that I was thinking of writing something different of what you can read in anyone’s blog… ok I wanted… I thought I would be able to be unique (I admit it was an arrogant thought)… now that I think about it… I thought I could be better than everybody else… or at least a lot more eloquent. It’s clear now that I’m not, either, better nor more eloquent. I’m just as good as the person sitting next to me in the bus and although in one hand that’s kind of reassuring, on the other, until a certain point in my life I though I was really good on a couple of things… and I now realised that I’m not… I realised that the majority of people (group in which I’m included) aren’t really good at anything. Not that we suck… but we aren’t extraordinary in anything… and that kind of makes me sad… yes I know this is also kind of an arrogant attitude… but I can’t help it.
Well I guess that I’m still in my early 20’s!

Another Lyric

Well it seems I must be hearing to much music, as I find myself more and more often listening to music that is the exact transcript of my fellings.
This time:

Silje Nergaard - Unbreakable Heart

Unbreakable heart play your part
In the scheming I have done
Not to fall for anyone
Or let love start

Unbreakable heart it's an art
You will master by and by
'Til then just be my
Unbreakable heart

You may get swept away
Like other fragile hearts
But don't you ever say
Love's breaking me apart

Unbreakable heart don't depart
From the pact that we have made
Love is forsakeable
My unbreakable heart

Working in August

It seems that I now belong to the working category… I don’t know what that means…
I’m working in a mobile telecommunications company but I didn’t understand yet, what am I supposed to do there. All the people in there are very nice, the atmosphere is great, but more than a week has passed and I haven’t received any actual work… something like: do this and it has to be ready until that day. That is what I was supposed to be doing… I think.
So my summer this year has absolutely no news… aside from my laptop being broken (I have to use my sisters computer) and my camera also broken (It’s being fixed… the poor thing). I have no news… I lose a lot of time in transports to reach the place were I work, and to come back again. So I’ll start taking my driving licence next week… The truth is that I have to admit that in Portugal you do need to own a car… the public transportation system is incredibly bad.
I’m anxious for September… lots of things will happen then: I’ll receive my fisrt salary ever, I’ll know the name of my coordinator for this year and last but not least I’ll turn 25 :-D

I’ve finished Harry Potter last book… all I can say is: If you did not read it already… read it! If you did not read the entire collection… read it! It’s brilliant

PS: While my poor camera doesn’t return home I won’t be able to post photos here!!!

About several various things

First let me say Norah Jones belongs to the group of exceptional. I really thought she was more marketing than any other thing, but after the concert I attended last Sunday I have to say… she’s much more. With the most awful organisation, with a audience that only was there so they could say they went to see Norah to their friends the next day, she just captivated everybody and gave one hell of a show. Her voice, her attitude, her energy, her karma… she is the real thing.

It looks like there’s less then a week left for me to start working… I really can’t understand what I’m supposed to do in a company. Am I supposed to add value to that company? How? I miss school already and it just ended last week. Is it really over that period of my life when I was just supposed to learn? Isn’t it true that the more I learn now the more productive I can be in the future? I feel that there is so much that I still don’t know… it’s really a strange felling.

And last but not least… I’m still me!!! I continue to have no clue what I want for me, what should be my plans for the future (I’ve found out that the best thing is to not have any) or even get my mind to feel the same way about something or someone two days in a row… I guess that’s normal, but I really would to like be that sort of person that has fixed ideas and plans and just sticks to them… or maybe I wouldn’t :-p

Because what seems almost always never is

Dream

In visions of the dark night
I have dreamed of joy departed -
But a waking dream of life and light
Hath left me broken-hearted.

Ah! what is not a dream by day
To him whose eyes are cast
On things around him with a ray
Turned back upon the past ?

That holy dream - that holy dream,
While all the world were chiding,
Hath cheered me as a lovely beam
A lonely spirit guiding.

What though that light, thro' storm and night,
So trembled from afar -
What could there be more purely bright
In Truth's day-star ?

Edgar Allan Poe