Reset

Life should have a reset button...

Disconnected

The last month and a half should have been one of the greatest periods of my life... instead it has been just life.

I feel that in this period all I’ve achieved are some great stories to tell people I haven’t seen in a while.

So, let’s start from the beginning: why do I say that the last 45 days should have been great;

- Two days after I started the job I wrote about previously... I quit and accepted the one that can send me to Angola.

- I bought a car;

- I moved to a new (better) house;

- In this new job I found a great team;

But all of this just lets me incredibly depressed... If by achieving all of these things I can’t feel happy and fulfilled, then my hopes of being truly happy get extremely diminished.

The biggest problem is that I know what’s missing... it’s too obvious not to notice... but I have no clue how to “address” that issue...

Lisa Ekdahl - Now or Never

The missing... something

There are days I don’t see my life as something happening in the for the present... it just looks like a series of well known steps that wore bound to happen and that just have to happen, so I can live my life in the future.I hate that feeling, it looks like I’m not being responsible for my actions, like I’m not the one in charge of my life.

I’d like to travel the world, see new cultures, meet different people, but just last week I turned down a job, because accepting it meant I would be going to Angola and that would remove me from my comfort zone. I wish I had the courage to just pack a bag and go somewhere different, go alone and just connect with different people, learn a different language... do something I could be proud of.

The last year and a half of my life I got my first job... but that’s it. Ok, with the wage I started earning I went to more places, travelled more, saw more shows... but I still feel that something is missing... I guess spending Saturday nights home writing about how unaccomplished I fell doesn’t help!

George Carlin